This is a blog I wrote about two years ago. WHEW. Can’t believe it’s been about a year and eleven months. CRAZY. This still rings true for me though. It will be included in the book I am writing currently. God bless.
xodani.k
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Currently Listening
Bring It On
By Oasis Praise
let me tell you how much bs the view of a calvinist is.
you can honestly sit there and say that this THEORY is oh so true, just because simply it is what you believe.
But I’ve lived this. And I know the hearts of men, perhaps some people in the Kingdom of God forget about the hearts of men. Did God truly choose you? and not these other people? I mean to say and to think that these select people are the “chosen ones” while this other group of people are never going to see the Lord’s face and in fact, they’re damned to Hell because that is where YOU put them, not God. How discouraging is that to someone, anyone who doesn’t know the Lord!
I’ve lived this! I’ve fallen away from the Lord! And the whole time God was waiting for me to come back, and literally, I had to breakdown and make a decision on if I would like to start living for the Lord again, that’s right, it was a difficult CHOICE I had to make. Because you know what? I know God could use me huge for His Kingdom, but I know if I don’t come running back then He’s gonna find someone else to get what job I have been imparted, done. I knew that God loved me SO MUCH that He wanted me as His child all along!
And meanwhile this whole calvinist topic has been brought to my attention once again. I myself can’t help but sit here and wonder, if this Calvinism stuff is true and then I’m trying to live for the Lord, is it all going to hell in a bread basket? Because I’m honestly not one of the chosen ones, or am i even going to hell, in a basket, or what? I don’t think so! what a discouraging thought! what a prideful PRIDEFUL thought!! are you serious with that???? how you are trying to say the Lord and His grace, the Lord, the supremacy, right? But supposedly He chose you….
what a humble thought “God chose me….” that is so humble, and yes that is grace but its another thought to think “I am one of God’s chosen….[muffled] versestheoneswhoarenot” now thats bull crap.
its a choice, if it wasnt a choice, then why do we bother trying to reach the hearts of men, bring them out from the grasp of the enemy, it makes things pointless. God doesn’t need us. But He does love us, all of us, so so much. He loves the whole world. How can one say that He only chose you and some others. To think that the heart of God, would do that…..its unthinkable. untrue. It breaks Gods heart when people dont run to Him when they CHOOSE not to. I know I broke Gods heart..And it is by only His grace and mercy and lovingkindness I am back in His Kingdom. But I CHOSE to run back, it was a hard hard choice that I was faced, my flesh vs my spirit, my heart stuck in between. And I know that sounds silly, but it’s honest. I had a hard time with it. And I know some people might find that quite crazy to say. I think a lot of times in the church, we arent as honest as we should be, if we were more honest and more real with people, there would be more of a revival. people would see oh they arent all high and mighty, but calvinism is just not helping this factor one bit, it turns the world off, they say “oh…well I dont have the Lord, I mean, I believe in God, but I am not living for Him, I guess I’m not His chosen, I must be going to Hell” you know what that is? that is a gaping hole for satan to take over….and it was not God who turned them around, embracing the enemy and an eternity in Hell, it was you….calvinists. “i must not be good enough” what about this twist.
a young single mother of 4 children, 3 different fathers, living on welfare, and no living family to take care of her or help her out. she crosses paths with this lovely christian young lady who invites her to church, seeing how nice this christian miss is, the young mother feels welcomed and brings her children with her that sunday morning. She feels God start to tug at her heart there in the service, but she’s so discouraged from the life of sin she has lived in her whole life. just then the pastor says “God chose us, we are God’s chosen people” her thoughts started to wander about “Gods chosen people, what if I am not one of those chosen people, what if one of my babies are not apart of that?” she continues to listen to the message as the pastor goes on and on about his calvinist view point. by the end of the sermon, she is so turned off by the message she just gets up in the ending prayer and walks out. she wanted no part of a prideful religion. She chose to walk out, to turn down the Love of not just a lifetime, but an eternity.
If we are bound by people, I can’t help but wonder how many people are running because of this view, how many people have turned down the Kingdom of Heaven because they got a wrong so wrong perspective on it? and when we get to Heaven, if God did judge us or if truly we were a huge part of someone making these decisions, would He say “you know, bob, I had that persons heart in my hand, they were almost cleansed and delivered of evil and had my Son Christ Jesus in the breaking point of their heart as their Salvation, but because of circumstances and choices you yourself made, this young woman is now in eternal hell.” Its obvious God wouldnt be a jerk about it. hehe Maybe He wouldnt mention it. But it’s something huge to think about.
We’re impacting people. It’s about God, the entirety of our lives, yes. But its about people entering His Kingdom too. and lastly us. the Bible says to die to yourself. I think calvinist views are God and you, not other people. in fact why bother with other people, because hey if God chose them, then theyre gonna know Him or probably already do. shoot might as well hang up the jacket and call it a lifetime. pshhh.
He is omnipresent, He knew I would be back, but only because He knows the future past and present. But to say or even LABEL yourself as apart of God’s chosen people, that is the crudest thing I’ve heard. Clearly, everyone who chooses God are the people of God. And God being omnipresent knows who is going to choose Him and who is not, however, that does not make us God, nor does it give us the right to decipher who and who is not chosen for His Kingdom.
And honestly, I love all my brothers and sisters in Christ unconditionally as God does, but I’m telling you it kills me to see some of them think this way…breaks my heart…always has.
peace and grace to you all. <3
danielle
